memory is a mirror

Aug 27

Michael Brown’s Unremarkable Humanity

Aug 25 2014, 4:48 PM ET via The Atlantic
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The New York Times has a feature today looking at the brief life of Michael Brown, informing us that he was “no angel.” The reasons for this are many. Brown smoked marijuana. He lived in a community that “had rough patches.” He wrote rap songs that were “by turns contemplative and vulgar.” He shoplifted and pushed a store clerk who tried to stop him. These details certainly paint a portrait of a young man who failed to be angelic. That is because no person is angelic—least of all teenagers—and there is very little in this piece that distinguishes Brown from any other kid his age.

What horrifies a lot of us beholding the spectacle of Ferguson, beholding the spectacle of Sanford, of Jacksonville, is how easily we could see ourselves in these kids. I shudder to think of my reaction, at 17, to some strange dude following me through my own housing development. I shudder to think of my reaction, at 17, to some other strange dude pulling up next to me and telling me to turn down my music.

And if Michael Brown was not angelic, I was practically demonic. I had my first drink when I was 11. I once brawled in the cafeteria after getting hit in the head with a steel trash can. In my junior year I failed five out of seven classes. By the time I graduated from high school, I had been arrested for assaulting a teacher and been kicked out of school (twice.) And yet no one who knew me thought I had the least bit of thug in me. That is because I also read a lot of books, loved my Commodore 64, and ghostwrote love notes for my friends. In other words, I was a human being. A large number of American teenagers live exactly like Michael Brown. Very few of them are shot in the head and left to bake on the pavement.

The “angelic” standard was not one created by the reporter. It was created by a society that cannot face itself, and thus must employ a dubious “morality” to hide its sins. It is reinforced by people who have embraced the notion of “twice as good” while avoiding the circumstances which gave that notion birth. Consider how easily living in a community “with rough patches” becomes part of a list of ostensible sins. Consider how easily “black-on-black crime” becomes not a marker of a shameful legacy of segregation but a moral failing.

We’ve been through this before. We will almost certainly go through it again.

Aug 26

“It is the spring of 1941 and I appear exceedingly pleased with myself, as though after much nagging I had finally persuaded her [my mother] to buy me a toy, although, unknown to either one of us, Hitler and Stalin and their armies had already made plans to turn me into an American poet.” —

Charles Simic, describing a photo of himself in Belgrade in 1941 while betraying a remarkable historical imagination. What an image!

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Aug 14

“The sense of being between cultures has been very, very strong for me. I would say that’s the single strongest strand running through my life: the fact that I’m always in and out of things, and never really of anything for very long.” — Edward W. Said, Power, Politics and Culture. (via mudras)

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““Memory weaves and traps us at the same time according to a scheme in which we do not participate: we should never speak of our memory, for it is anything but ours; it works on its own terms, it assists us while deceiving us or perhaps deceives up to assist us.”
― Julio Cortázar”

Dear Ferguson, Missouri Police:

What the eff? I mean, what the effing eff?

This is America. Or at least it’s supposed to be. We have rights. They can  be violated, even legally sometimes, but they exist nonetheless.

The heart of the Bill of Rights is a series of amendments describing the rights of accused persons and/or suspects. The 4th, 5th, 6th, 7th (defunct), and 8th amendments ALL deal with the rights of citizens in criminal matters. So of the 10 amendments hailed as the “Bill of Rights,” HALF were about the rights of citizens when they are suspected of a crime or other nefarious activity.

It’s not hard to understand why. The government, after all, runs the prisons. And the prosecutors. And the police. It has vast resources to turn against you if it decides it wants to prosecute you — or persecute you (something the Framers definitely feared). You meanwhile, will have … whatever resources you have when proceedings against you start: personal wealth (if you have any, and assuming it hasn’t been seized by the State as well). An attorney (of varying quality). Umm … ? Anything else?

So the Bill of Rights is intended to partially rebalance the scales in favor of citizens and against the State.

So what the effing eff are you doing, Ferguson? You have taken the Framers’ fears and multiplied them beyond imagination. In place of muskets you have SWAT. In place of horses you have armored vehicles. Arrayed against citizens exercising their rights, which you seem hell bent on violating.

As regular readers of this blog will know, I am sympathetic to police. I did research with police. I have spent over 100 nights of my life riding with police officers. I have been to riots, had beer bottles chunked at me at 2 am, have been left in a housing project in the middle of the night, and watched a 17 year old die after a car accident. (Seatbelts save lives, people.) I can tell you what a burned body smells like. (You don’t want to know.) And much, much more. I recognize many of the contradictions and struggles of the job from a “been there done that” perspective.

All of which leads me to ask: Ferguson … what the eff?

What the effing eff?

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Aug 13

No Country for Old Men

YOU CAN’T STOP WHAT’S COMING
by Erica Cantoni

This land is changing.

Anton Chigurh did not make it so, but he is a harbinger.

I rewatch No Country for Old Men and lapse in to quiet again. Think with reinforced conviction that it might be the saddest movie I know. Think that it feels like a documentary for life gone past, life erasing itself by the day.

I lie on the dusty wide wooden floor as if it were a flatbed and consider the plains frozen on my cumbersome 1996 television. Consider what it means to be a man on those plains that unroll straight south into Mexico in 1980.

No Country can make you mourn for not being born a man.  For the fact that I can spend a lifetime admiring and loathing this fraternity and never be eligible for inclusion. Probably, it will make you sadder still for men and where they will go when they run out of land and years. Sad for good simple men when sense is sparse, when expectations flood and thin into something they no longer understand.

I watch again and still can’t precisely explain to you what it is about Chigurh that will not let me be.

Chigurh is just a man.

He is a pitiless, humorless man calmly slaughtering in a Reagan-elect era America. Slow like the strongest things are, buttoned up in dark stiff denim and boots he checks carefully. Expropriating cars made for eventual abandoning in Utah, or one day’s drive later, in Nevada.  A heavy black man-bob worn long as a dare. Decide to make fun of it. Give him one reason to owe you a debt. 

It is Javier Bardiem, and Tommy Lee Jones can’t stop talking about “the Mexicans”, so we suppose this Anton must be one. And yet he isn’t, that isn’t right at all. He must be Eastern Europe, Moscow, Siberia. Long cold bones and the pretty powdered, cruel face of the former Soviet Bloc. Thick and heavy-footed and determined as Stalin. Hitler. Milosevic.

I could watch you all day, Chigurh. I could listen to the way you speak to Llewelyn for the first time – hospital room to hotel room. Unidentified and intimate as old lovers at the end of a spell. It is all half sentences and anticipated thoughts. No formalities. No overt threats.  All elegant cruelty. "Do you know where I’m going"  "Yeah I know where you’re going. She won’t be there."  "You know how this is going to turn out, don’t you?"

I would take field notes on your irritation at wasted words. Your existential impatience with extrinsic morality. Your righteous refusal to take responsibility for anyone – for their choices or their fate, a standard I think you might worship if you prayed to anything at all. Brutal as you are, I would find it hard to walk away from your proverbs. Would watch them over one shoulder, torn as Lot’s wife: “If the rule you followed brought you to this, of what use was the rule?”And, “You should admit your situation. There would be more dignity in it.”

But Chigurh is a metaphor too and oddly it is that role that pushes me back from him. Repulsed.

He is a brave new world’s villain. That he is calmly pursuing Josh Brolin specifically to retrieve his $2 million in drug-trade-gone-bad money is fairly incidental.  Sure, he will kill Llewelyn and Llewelyn ‘s wife and Woody Harrelson’s snappy Carson Wells and motorists and Hispanic drug peddlers and a handful of other human collateral, incidental as cold change.  But none of those are his most tragic victims or proof of his greatest threat.

You should understand from the start that Chigurh is the meaningless marching of time and change – coming for us undaunted and unexplained. Change unjustified. And you cannot watch Sherriff Ed Tom Bell stand at the gate to the field and observe this tide approaching and how his old soft face works to sort it out and fails and not be broken by what it means to be a man. Now.

This old Texan county is Ed Tom’s to protect. To understand a step before anyone else, to control.  There was a time when a man could do this, he tells us, without even carrying a gun. And now those days are gone and on deck are days of men who have outgrown guns. Who turn to weapons crafted for the efficient slaughter of animals. And I realize there is no coincidence in Chigurh’s tool; What are these men and what will they keep becoming but animals?

And that is what Ed Tom Bell can’t live with most of all.

In an era that has outpaced Sheriff Bell, Chigurh is the nuclear outcome.  The modern, mutated anthem of men who will engineer their own principles and adhere to those exclusively, wholly separate from the issue of collective morality. Wholly agreeing to disregard that expired simplicity and goodness because there is so much more to choose from.  And I think that is the underlying theme of the whole movie and maybe most specifically of Chigurh. 

If we can’t stop expecting more of men, how long can it be until they pick what matters to them most and abide by those principles alone?

For Anton, it is his oddly refined, entirely unique sense of justice. It is never a question of whether or why he wants to kill Llewelyn; It is that he must. That is his contractual obligation in an existence where Llewelyn’s actions have wronged and offended if not collectively, specifically. There is no option and no rest until this is accounted for.

If Chigurh is modern hell then Sheriff Bell is nostalgic heaven and I suppose that makes Llewelyn purgatory. Or perhaps he is the pawn and the stakes Chigurh and Bell play for.

So what will you choose - No Country asks each of you Llewelyns - and what will be set aside for it? Will it be freedom or fortune or mass affirmation or sexual adventuring or family or art or greed or leisure or faith?  And where will you leave us along the way? Where will you leave you?

I will never grow tired of the subject of what it means to be a good man. I could debate it for hours and still fall quiet at night in gutted empathy because who do You get to ask about this issue? What can you do but collect our demands long as a flight prep list and merge them with your own and decide where you will disappoint?

Be smart and charming and funny and manly and progressive and know the right words that will ache us and then be strong enough to put it all back together. Figure out how to monetize that charm and cleverness. Figure out how to succeed. Be removed and bastardly enough that we do not grow tired of you. Honest and sensitive enough that you will not damage our own good hearts.  Be hardened and invincible, but quote from the right books and make us laugh. Impress us all. There is an airstrip one county over and now the whole damn state is yours to conquer and serve and be clear: This is expected of you.  It’s all within reach and all invading.

So learn to be the protector and the nurturer and the rogue and the reliable. Or choose yourself and freedom and fail us.

Mills asked once if these paradoxes are unique to men and I say yes. Betraying my gender I say yes, just as there are pressures and conflicts and weariness unique to being a woman, I will lead the march to the town square to confess:  Being a man is nearly impossible to get right. And we need you so much to get it right.

This is not 1980 Texas and ours is not just the matter of warping crimes and fading human decency. But this is still our evolution and our question of what becomes of good men. What becomes of a country to which no men truly belong? Of us when we break apart and abandon the expanding collective good we never can be strong enough to carry for the manageable cult of self or selective principles.

I don’t know how you can be everything this evolving world asks you to. And I fear I might mourn the priorities you select instead. Fascinated as I am by him, I regret Anton Chigurh’s principles and the principles you might whittle out and how you’ll pursue them just as relentlessly.

But what else we can expect when no one holds your forehead when a migraine blows in. When a badge is irrelevant. And we don’t know how to hear your helplessness.

"I always figured when I got older, God would sort of come into my life somehow. And he didn’t. And I don’t blame him."

Erica Cantoni works in the non-profit world by day and writes by night. She believes in Radical Sincerity, aims to earn admission to the Travelers Century Club before she dies and reveres movies, books and things on the internet that make her cry in the best possible ways. She and her husband live in Los Angeles with their adorable cat.

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